30 May 2010

"Turn the Car Around and Get the Hell Out of Town"*


The U.B. ended today. Now the hard march of post-U.B. reality begins, with all the emotional and financial repercussions we knew it would entail. I'm still trying to make sense of what happened, and trying to deal with the anger, betrayal and frustration for which I still don't have a productive outlet, but at least no one's dumping more shit on top of the pile anymore.

Praise be to God, a few more boxes moved and the leaving will be done. Time to shake off the dust and mourn what has been lost: friendships, trust, the ability to forgive. This mourning will be a long, lonely road but, as I noted before, at least Beloved and I will travel together, as we've done since the U.B. first started spreading its poison.

To those who've walked this journey with us, loved on us, supported us, prayed for us: thank you. Your continued prayers will be appreciated. As soon as we get our hearts and heads straight, I'll be back to blogging a bit more regularly, but for now we need to tend to ourselves.

The peace of the Triune God be with you all.

Scott

*A line from "What Was Wrong" by Storyhill

7 comments:

  1. You've heard it before and it doesn't ease any pain right now....but know that God doesn't give us anymore than we can handle and there is a reason for this. It makes us stronger for the future and able to help those around us that need our strength. Hang in there. It sucks! But know that there are people praying for you here in NE.

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  2. Praying for you and your family, Scott.

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  3. I am sorry and I hope new doors will open for you that will bring unexpected blessings. I'll be praying.

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  4. Prayers ascending for you and your family, Scott. And now you're going to make me start blogging again.

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  5. I had no idea this was going on. You and your family are in my prayers.

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  6. oh crappity crap crap... just yesterday i said that when we suffer we are vulnerable and i think that's why we dislike it so much... *sigh* but as you know those times are also fertile ground times for god to do a new thing within us.

    prayers... for you both!

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